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Why is my enough never enough, continued….

Why is my enough never enough, continued….


God has blessed me with eight children, all of whom have a different story to tell as to how I became their mother. My oldest I was 18 years old, newly high school graduate and newly married, and after a long labor and delivery she was born into this world on July 27. My second came 18 months after the first when I am sure was a cold January day, 2000. The world was predicted to end as the year 2000 came (that was fun being a new mom and pregnant during that scare) but the year came and gone and my third baby was born in January 2003 three years and three days after her sister! During that time I worked at Hy-Vee in the kitchen, I worked at the bank, and an insurance company. But then I wanted more so I convinced my husband that it was a brilliant idea to pick up our family and move to Florida. To say the move was an adventure is an understatement, and I didn’t feel like it was a mistake until my two daughters moved to Florida last year leaving Minnesota behind. 😂 oh, did I mention me only spent six weeks in Florida when we lived there!


After a while, I felt like we should have more kids. We couldn’t have any more biological kids because I had my tubes tied after my third baby so we looked at foster care/adoption. The roller coaster that foster/adoption is- more good than bad, has brought us 3 sons and 2 daughters.


I truly believe, 100% that my children, all eight of them, no matter how they came to me, and how I became their mother, is all the work of God. God chose me to be their mother, what an honor and a privilege that is, and also a BIG responsibility!!


OK so I wanted to say that first, before saying, sometimes I get stuck on my desire for “more” and ask myself was this how it was all supposed to be. I have to pause that thought and shove it aside- because my children, God’s children, are right where God intended for them to be! And on my bad days, I have to remember that God chose me to be their mother and what an honor and a privilege that is!

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